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More Old Messages

August 18, 2008

More old messages that are coming to mind.

You will never belong.
No one will understand you.
People will think you are crazy.
You must hide what you are really like.
You must hide what you really think.
You must hide what you really feel.
You must hide what you really experience.
People are only nice out of a sense of duty or “Christian” obligation.
People are only nice because they feel sorry for you.
People see you as a “project”.
You can never trust your senses.
You deserve everything that happens to you.
Negative things are your lot in life…your destiny.
You must fulfill your destiny.
You must become what we want you to become.
If you are not OK, I am not OK.
You must be perfect so that others will think I am a great mother.
You must be perfect so that others will think our family is OK.
Our family IS OK.
Our family is normal.
Other families have problems.
You must always know what to do and how to behave.
You must always behave perfectly.
You must excell at whatever you do.
You must fulfill our plans for you.
You owe us.
You are obligated to us.
Your life if not your own.

So many messages so subtly woven throughout my psyche…and some not so subtly woven. Some I have moved beyond. Some I still struggle with in current day life.

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