Mother’s Day

May 9, 2009

Is hardhardHARD! I HATE Mother’s Day. I don’t feel like I have done a good enough job as a mother to be honored and I always start struggling when I think of my own childhood. So much buried. So many unanswered questions. Amnesia. Emotional flashbacks. I am sure that recent communications with my parents are not helping. I am not sure, but I think this year is worse than last year. It is hard to say because I don’t keep track of such things. I guess I could look back through my blog and see if anything shows up. Maybe I wrote about it.

I hate going to church on Mother’s Day. It just brings up too dang many things for me. Yet, I also hate missing gathering together with other believers. The PTSD is raging…anxiety leved is very high.



  1. gentle hugs to you.

  2. Thanks. Hugs back to you, my faithful friend!

  3. I know what you mean. I hate it too. My mother died last year and I am having such a time of it. I have been debating going to church too, however, ours recognizes that not all of us had fabulous moms, for which I am very grateful.

    I’m sorry you’re having such a tough time… I hope you can find something nurturing to do today…

    • Thanks, Labyrinth. Today has been a really tough day. Church was actually good, though. They always have a musical put on by the 2 through 5th graders. It was not about moms and it is always fun to watch these youngsters.

      My oldest called me, too. That was good. He woke me up from a nap. I ended up napping partly due to feeling so down…so I guess you could say that was nurturing.

      I hope your day is OK.

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