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About the theme…and other stuff…

July 6, 2010

OK…the other theme was driving me nuts. I could not get the background light enough without washing out some of the text…and I could not adjust the color of the text. So…I am trying this one out for a while. It is called “Neat”. I don’t really have time to mess with themes any more right now.

On other lines of thought…I started a poetry blog. It has a real original title…NOT! But at least I am pretty consistent! A Survivor’s Poetry. You can either click on the link here or you can find the link at the top of the RSS blog links in the right hand column. I can appreciate that there are some who might only want to read poetry…or only look at art…so, I made a blog for each.

My computer goes back soon. I don’t really like it, but I also don’t like the idea that I might not be to get it turned on one of these days. *sigh* I don’t know if they will fix it or not. One guy told me they will send a check for sure. Another guy said the first guy had no right to say that…that they might be able to fix it…or send an entirely different PC. I don’t mind fixing…but I am not thrilled with a different PC unless it is the same kind or better.

I am tired. I am grieving. This grieving has to do with my ex. Not that I am grieving him…but as I see his family on FB interacting with my first marriage sons…well…I am just so aware of losing not just a spouse…but a whole family. I know it had to be…in my head. But in my heart…it is another story. There is a part of me who wants to say “hello”, but I was so vilified and lied about that I don’t really dare. I have regained some connections…partially…but not all…which is actually probably a good thing.

I am continuing to work on getting my art into jpeg format. The motivation is the Webinar I am doing in August. But this is also good for me…to have all my pieces sorted through and categorized and numbered. The Webinar is being done by Survivorship. I will put a link in the sidebar. The Webinars are being done as a community service and also to raise funds for ongoing Survivorship services.

As for my parents…still no word. Such is life.

5 comments

  1. About the theme?and other stuff? « A Survivor's Thoughts on Life…

    I found your entry interesting do I’ve added a Trackback to it on my weblog :)…


  2. A.) I like the layout of your blog page.

    B.) What a lousy time to have computer problems. Oi!

    C.) You said: “…I am tired. I am grieving. This grieving has to do with my ex. Not that I am grieving him…but as I see his family on FB interacting with my first marriage sons…well…I am just so aware of losing…” Oh! My heart goes out to you. Oh… this should not happen in life.

    I don’t know what to say to you about the parent trap… I get it, but why do we always go there?

    best wishes,

    ~meredith~


    • Hi, meredith! You know…it’s funny. I was just rereading what I posted and realized that I left something out. Of course, in an environment where I can RARELY post without interruption…what else is new? I was never REALLY close to any of my ex’s family…however, I did care about them all, especially certain of the young ones. The worst was how my ex lied so much about me…really vilified me to his family in order to justify what he did. *sigh*

      Thanks for coming by, hon. I know you have been going through things of your own, too.


  3. Hi, again;

    The question I posed was a rhetorical one: it was more of a frustrated sigh than a question…
    Wouldn’t it be nice NOT to have to think about our parents for awhile… ?

    Again. Best wishes,

    ~meredith~


    • Yeah…I figured it was rhetorical. 🙂 and yeah…wouldn’t it be nice? I wish I did not have to think about them because they were always a current positive part of my life. But they are not and I just have to keep on accepting that and grieve that loss, too.



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