
Or…Could It Be Two Wrong Answers?
August 1, 2011The flip side of two right answers is two wrong answers. Each choice has a positive side and a negative side.
If I call, I see several possibilities:
*They might have put up call blocker which settles it as I won’t give my phone number out. Even if I was willing, my hubby is not and I am trusting him to watch out for my son and me.
*I might have to face talking to my father. I did talk to him the time when I called. My mother asked if she could put him on the phone and I said “yes”. Neither of us really said much of anything. I don’t remember what was said, but I do know it was very short…probably because he is hard of hearing?
*I might actually get somewhere with my mother. Boy…am I dreaming or what???
*Any contact might result in my father sending a nasty email to my hubby…which, of course, I do have the option to read or not. I do believe hubby would tell me if my father wrote.
*My mother might actually email me. Although my father’s email is blocked…her’s is not.
*If I am rebutted…at least I will know I tried…again.
If I don’t call:
*I won’t have to face any weirdness…other than what my father might send to my hubby.
*I may always wonder if I was just being smart…or being a wimp. I mean…seriously…what can my father (or mother) really do to me? I have pretty much known where I stand for years. My mother confirmed it when I talked to her on the phone and my father confirmed it in an email. What could he possibly say or do that can really hurt me? I drew the boundary lines about 9 years ago. Nothing seems to have really changed.
Whether I call or not, I am faced with the possibility that my father may never let me know if my mother dies and vice versa. While not a pleasant thought, I am prepared for that possibility.
(As it turns out, my father did write before I got a chance to post this. More to come.)
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