Opening up & Being Free

July 16, 2020

I opened up to someone today about the nature of my real history. It was empowering and refreshing. She actually seemed to know about some of what I shared with her. If not, she accepted it anyway, which made it easier to share. It also turns out she knows someone she believes has MPD. How interesting. I truly believe God brings things together in His timing.

One thing I am really beginning to see is how programming is connected to some of my triggers. At least, it was/is in this case. I am moving forward in a direction I believe God wants me to go and I knew the sabotage was coming, which is why I wanted to open up about it. I knew I would need help to move forward and the people I want to move forward with need to know my battle. The woman I shared with is one of those key people. As soon as I made the arrangement to share with them, the triggering started.

It didn’t help that I was also asked to share my recovery story at the end of the month. I have not really shared it since my memory recall two decades ago. That recall changed everything about my life, but it also made it make sense. Plus, there were safety issues that have caused me to keep quiet about it.

But now… now is the time. I watched the triggering take its toll on my health and I knew I had to stop it. I didn’t really connect the shaking and triggering with programming, but yesterday morning I realized that was exactly what was going on and I can expect there will be more as I go along. Once I knew it was programming, I knew what to do to break it. I stood my ground in who I am… a daughter of the Most High One True God and broke that programming. With His Spirit, I broke the power right out of it. And that is exactly what I will continue to do any time this comes up.

I am created to live free. They took that away from me. But they cannot keep me from living in freedom now. They can try, but they cannot win for they have already lost. Hallelu Yah!

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