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The Puppet Master

July 16, 2020
Who are you and who am I?
You worked so hard to blur the lines
to splinter me into a thousand pieces
and, yet, become one with you.
You! Who are you?
Who the heck are you?
Do you even know
as you do your master's bidding?
I feel the pain inside me
wanting to come out,
but that is not all I see.
I also see the pain inside you,
the pain you try to hide
behind, "I don't remember doing that".
You triggered my programming
every chance you got.
You pushed me hard to make me break
in order to keep you safe.
You never could get that I did/do love you
in spite of all you have done.
I know you are broken.
Do you?
Are you as painfully aware of your brokenness 
as I am of mine? 
Or am I the first generation?
I have prayed for you to find freedom
as I have done,
for your bonds to be released
as mine have,
for your heart and spirit to heal
as have mine.
I am not there, yet, 
and won't be until the end.
But I am not what I was.
I am no longer a puppet
to be used for their purposes,
for your purposes.
You cannot pull my strings anymore
for they have been cut,
I no longer respond to the cues,
to the unspoken (and spoken)
requests hiding behind your (and their) words and actions.
No more acts.
And though I'm still not fully healed
from the blood that was shed
or the acts committed
I will continue to grow.
I am strong in the Creator,
not the one you tried
to make Him out to be,
the real One.
All glory to the One True God!

As I Lay Me Down to Sleep

June 29, 2010

As I Lay Me Down to Sleep

As I lay me down to sleep
flashbacks in the mind release.
Pushing forward, images come
as I fight to not come undone.
My body tenses; I cannot breathe,
overwhelmed by what I “see”.
Morphing one image into another,
with silent screams of “no” in my head,
I try to be open to history’s unveiling,
fighting the urge to let the mists return.
But slowly it slips away from me again.
And in the morning I awake
with a new reality like a distant dream.
Is anything ever what it seems?

June 28, 2010

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