Posts Tagged ‘evil’


What can I say?

May 2, 2013

I have so many emotions that run through me. I am angry at what my son, flesh of my flesh, has done…all the people hurt…lives turned upside down.  I want to write here, but I lose my words. I start to put down some semblance of thoughts, but then I just stare at it and wonder why I should even bother to try to write or post what I have written.

My heart is breaking and some days I find myself fighting tears most of the day. I keep doing life, but it is not the same. My only real comfort is my Creator. I know who I am in Him. I know His unconditional love. Someday, all evil will be gone. And I wonder…who will really be left standing in the end?  Who will have chosen good, forsaking evil and turning to the Creator?

I am fighting to move back to some semblance of “normal”…at least my “normal”. I get triggered more easily now. I gotta go finish my Shabbat bread, but I am going to go ahead and post this. If it makes no sense to anyone, oh well. If it does make sense, I hope I hear from someone. Please give me a reason to not keep all my thoughts in my private journal. Please give me a reason to write here. Anyone?


The Reality of Abuse

February 15, 2008

So many people just do not want to believe abuse happens, even when it is under their noses. I think, for some, it is because they have not dealt with their own abuse and, therefore, cannot handle seeing the abuse of others. I had a very wise pastor tell me one time that it is hard for people to hear about someone’s pain when they have undealt with pain themselves. This is because hearing the other person’s pain touches their pain.

And for others, they cannot admit that there is such darkness as abuse because they have no answer for it. They believe that this life is all there is and it is too terrifying to believe the abuse is real. They live in a world without hope and feel helpless to do anything about it.

Others are such sensitive souls that they are too hearbroken by the thought of it to admit that it happens.

Some are simply deceived. They have been lied to and told there is no evidence for it when there is a LOT of evidence for it.

There may be as many reasons for not believing in it as there are people who don’t believe.

But it does happen. Regardless of the reasons people have for not believing in it…it does happen.

I know…I am a survivor. And I have friends who are, too.

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