Posts Tagged ‘shabbat’

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Today…

February 17, 2013

It’s Sunday morning and I am waiting on a ride to go to our assembly. My Shabbat was a wonderful time of learning and online fellowship. I wish I could attend a Messianic synagogue in person, but the closet one is just too far away, although I have visited with friends a couple of times for special events and have spoken on the phone with the Rabbi there.

The more I have studied under Messianic Jewish teachers, the more I learned that I had to unlearn. Although some things are very much affirmed and set in stone, as it were, there are also many things that have been misunderstood and mistaught. There are times I have found myself angry over it. We have been robbed of so much that was to be ours as the grafted in ones…so many blessings. I am told I am not alone in those feelings. It is quite common amongst those of us who have had our eyes opened.

The anger is pretty much gone now, but I still get sad (and at times, frustrated) on Sunday mornings when I hear things taught that I know are not quite right…and sometimes not even close to right. At least the pastor is pretty open, for which we are very grateful. We share what we can…when we can.

Like any typical assembly, there are some there who are just passing time. But there are also others who really do love the L-rd. They simply have not been taught correctly and you can’t really blame the leaders because they, too, have not been taught correctly! The whole largely unbiblical system is the product of generations of misunderstandings that started off as agendas.

I really appreciate the fellowship. Although there are none there that I would call a close friend, there are those I love to see and spend time with on Sunday mornings. I attend the women’s class and have been able to open my heart to them to some degree and share a bit of what I have been learning.

We believe that in person fellowship is important, which is a big reason why we still go. Should the pastor leave, however, it might be a different story. It is much harder for my husband to connect there. In the women’s class we can share openly and deeply and we can challenge one another. There is no such class for the men. Our pastor is a blessing and his absence would be hugely felt.

So here I sit, waiting for a ride, as the Shalom of the Shabbat still covers me. Even though we moved out of the moed/appointed time…out of the sacred and set apart and into the common, I am still at “rest” inside. Honoring Shabbat gives me more than any Sunday morning has ever given me. I am blessed. I am grateful.

 

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Missing in Action…

January 14, 2013

I know it probably seems as if I am “missing in action”. Truth is…there is a lot of action in my life, but most of my writing is on my non-survivor blog, Facebook and my studies. I am also just being busy in my home…being me and enjoying the day-to-day things in life.

The highlight of my week is Shabbat. All through the week I am preparing for that moed…that appointed time…with my Creator — my heavenly Abba/Daddy, my Messiah Yeshua and the Ruach HaKodesh. I bake and prepare special treats for that day and for breakfast. I prepare enough dinner to cover lunch, too. It is a day of resting, attending online Messianic synagogues and being with my family. It is a time of refreshing and I am learning SO much. The more I learn, the more I realize how much I was taught that is incorrect. A lot of my spiritual paradigm has shifted.

There are some things I know even more firmly, such as the fact that Yeshua is the Messiah…the Son of G-d…and that all things were created through Him, for Him and by Him. But other things, such as what that means for others and for myself, have changed. There are many scriptures that left me puzzled before that I now understand. And there are many more that I thought I understood and now I really understand. It turns out they did not mean at all what I was taught they meant or what I thought they meant.

So much understanding of the scriptures depends upon knowing the language and culture of both the writers and the readers of that day. Now that I am studying under those who do know those things, my eyes are being opened and I am so excited! I am also a bit saddened and even experienced some anger. We had so much stolen away from us by anti-Semitism and missed out on a lot for so many years. But there are more and more people like us who are learning about our roots…learning what we have been grafted into…and our spiritual lives are soaring!

So, although I am “missing” a bit from this particular blog, I am in “action”. I hold all my survivor friends in my heart and I think of you all often. I do keep wanting to come here more and I will keep on working on it.

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Everything in me…

October 5, 2012

As I celebrate Sukkot and prepare to enter Shabbat, everything in me says that Messiah is coming back very SOON!

Please, if you have not sought the Creator with all your being, do so without delay! No one knows how much time they have. Death could come at any time. And beyond that, all things will change when Messiah comes.

There is coming a time when the Creator will remake this world and all that is evil will be banished…all that is not of the Creator.

Seek the Creator. Seek the Son mentioned in the Older Scriptures that we know in the Newer Scriptures as Yeshua/Jesus.

Please seek Him.

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