Gaining clarity–

My husband prayed for me beneath his tallit. One of the things he prayed was for me to understand what is going on inside. I believe his prayer was answered.

I am constantly pushing into the “enemy’s” territory. Plus, I am finding new freedom as I push forward in my own healing. The enemy does not like that, nor do all the people who are under his spell.

I have a training coming up that will make me more effective. This morning, as I read the preparatory email, I had the overwhelming feeling there was no way I could go through with this. As I thought about it though, it did not make sense. I have already been preparing my clients that I will not be available that week. I certainly have the smarts and abilities to do the training. I took a similar training to get my current certification. I believe I have resolved my laptop zoom issues. So, what is up?

As I thought about the fact there is no logical reason for my being unable to do the training other than this emotional upheaval happening inside of me, it hit me. THEY don’t want me taking it. They also don’t want me having a case manager, a therapist familiar with DID, and a life coach of my own. They want me ineffective…useless. They are sending spiritual forces against me. Well, tough!

Once I figured out I am under spiritual attack, it lifted. The darkness, when exposed to the Light, cannot stand. It is my constant prayer for any darkness within me to be exposed to the Light and driven out. I also pray against the powers of evil and darkness that surround me.

Thank You, Avinu Shebashamayim, for the spiritual warriors You have assigned to me to protect me. You did not give me the privilege of seeing them, but You did give that privilege to someone else. I am strong in You and in You alone. I have no strength of my own. I only have that which Your Ruach HaKodesh gives me. You empower me to do what I do. I leave the results in Your hands. Thank You for covering me with Your wings. Beneath Your wings I am safe and secure and there is NOTHING the enemy can do to hurt me that You do not allow. And what You allow, You use for good and I trust You to get me through whatever comes my way.